Cont'd from yesterday...

(...cont'd) All right, the theme song for FF8 is Eyes on me which is sung by Faye Wong. I love this song the moment I hear it, u can call it love at first note. Duno y also, I juz totally love this song when I heard it for the first time. I still remember tat it was when Squall went into space to rescue Rinoa (duno wat happen, forgotten about the storyline, very long ago liao...) with the Ragnarok. Den aft Squall found Rinoa and brought her into the Ragnorak, it was then tat the song started to play... and I immediately know tat this is the song I wanted...

Eyes on me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

*Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
You're tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming (repeat *)

Feelings: Tired... yesterday only sleep 3 hrs...
Thoughts: Do I stand a chance?

Sianz sianz sianz

Very de sianz ah. Recently feeling very moody, duno y. Also feeling depressed and boring, die, maybe got depression liao... haiz... den 2day supposed to go hiking with the alumni, but den woke up at 5.30am and dun feel like going so keep on sleeping -_-..zzZ Come to think of it, I've keep on release pigeon (fang ge zi) to the alumni... tat time they ask me to join in for the chingay performance, i agreed but aft tat, i didn't go for the practice so in the end i did not join in. Den got a bi-annual alumni meeting on 31 july i also didn't go. Last sat i was supposed to hand over to hidayah the money for joining the alumni but i overslept so didn't meet her. Den 2day i agreed to go hiking with them but i dun feel like going so didn't go also... haiz... maybe i shd not join the alumni?

2day saw the olympic for table tennis. Li Jia Wei lost her bronze medal to the korean woman, so sianz... den went to play bball at nite, my shooting got something wrong liao, i aim straight but keeps shooting towards the left... siao liao... 2day only got jd, wp, ws, wh, zx and me play, so few ppl very boring... Feel like playing badminton recently, very long didn't play le, but den weekend book the court very expensive, but weekdays our schedule all not the same so very hard to meet and play... so sianz... beginning to wonder maybe i've choosen the wrong course? Wanted to get into business but den COP is 15, difference by 2 pts only... so suay. Den appeal for BIT also failed... ap school >_< maybe next time go university i'll study business, but den go U need to study for a few yrs, tat means i'll be 25 yrs old when i completed my studies... so old liao...

Life is so short, now already going to 17 yrs old. Den aft tat is finish my studies, get a job, den get married and live the rest of my life... like so boring like tat... i dun want to live my life juz like tat, so boring, how i hope there can be an adventure in my life, one big adventure for all of S.A. but where to find adventure? Singapore so small, everywhere already been explored, den the old changi hospital also taken over by the military... so ap, the government won't even leave some place for us to explore... so had to go overseas to explore liao. But den need $$$... sianz... maybe can open a company? It's the fastest way to earn money... actually wat i hope most is to have an adventure along with a "hong hong lie lie de ai qing", maybe i too naive ba, i always hope to have a love story like the FF8 Squall and Rinoa... how i wish FF was in reality den can go on missions and kill monsters... haiz... talking about FF8, I love the song a lot. I'll continue tml cos this post very de long liao and now very late liao... (to be continue...)




Feelings: Hopeless
Thoughts: Hopeless

Boring poly

Finding poly more and more boring... today is even more boring, got CADP whole day, den doing the drawing halfway tat Mr Chandra aka Mr Prata keep showing us how to do this and how to do tat... waste a lot of time. Today have no mood to go sch one, but still must go, soooooo sianz...

Now for the Olympic, Ronald Susilo still lost in the end, tot tat if he can defeat the top seed, the rest shouldn't be a problem. But at least still got Li Jia Wei, hope she can win a medal for Singapore. Gogogo!

Played bball yesterday, really getting very lousy liao... die die... den pull up also like no strength like tat, maybe gain some weight liao... must lose to 55kg >_<




Feelings: Sianz...
Thoughts: Empty

Relax

This week is very very de relax, mon dun need go sch cos other grps are presenting, tues from 1pm to 4pm, wed 1.30pm to 3pm (no CO practice somemore hahaha...), thurs the same 11am to 6pm, fri 8am to 12pm... den AVP showing on thurs, maybe next week go watch? Decided not to extend my concession cos there's a one week holiday + presentation week so if I extend, I will lose out (at least $25+). Btw, met Amanda in the library 2day, she still the same, small small den soft soft voice :S So tat means got 10+ ppl I know studying at SP. Let's see got who - Jianda, Kian Hwee, Cindy, Valerie, Wei Ying, Seok Ping, Shu Ling, Sishan, Daphne, Liting, Amanda, Hui Meing, Kingsley, Shi Hui, Alan, Simon, Matthew, William. Tat's all I can think of, 18 ppl.

Tml our grp's turn to present, l8r need to write a long long page of speech to say tml. Hope the lecturers dun keep bombing us... den need to think of a topic for the LC class, duno wat to say, maybe doraemon? Still got the CADP need to do, tat one super hard, by sat must complete >_< sianz...

Recently feeling very 'empty' at sch, I like everything 'bo chap' one, den at sch also like gong gong one. Haiz... got to practice my dizi and piano, den have to start learning my violin liao, if not, going to have spider web liao...




Feelings: Sianz...
Thoughts: Just understand love is amazing...

Time flies...

Haiz... time really flies very fast. Saw on friendster some of my pri sch friends' pic, they really change a lot. I think even if meet on the street also cannot recognize them... Among all my years of schooling, I find tat pri sch is the best, I really like my pri 6 class a lot. All of my pri 6 classmates are the best. On the contrary, I feel tat the frenship formed in poly won't be as close as those before poly, well, at least tat's wat I think for now. Scott Adventry is still the best! ;D

By the way, I found 2 of my pri sch classmates in frenster, both not in contact for abt 7 yrs already. So happy to be in contact with them again. Read christine's blog 2day, makes me think about the love between 2 person. Does true love exists? Well it reminds me of a movie I've watched some time ago - Love Actually. It's a great movie, the different love stories are also very interesting, one of which is tat a guy likes this girl, but his best fren is getting married to her, and he didn't tell her tat he likes her. He keeps avoiding her whenever she is around, which makes her think tat he actually dislike her. In the end, his best fren is married to her and he confessed his feelings to her during christmas eve. Here's the scene: It was christmas eve, he pressed the doorbell, the girl went to answer the door. He stands outside, playing christmas carols sung by children on a radio, and he is holding some cards with words written on them. His best fren asked who is at the door and he hold up a card, written on it was to asked her to say tat it was juz some christmas carols singers. Den he changed the cards one by one, confessing his love for her, but she is already married to his best fren. Tat is a very touching scene. There's a quote from the movie - "True love lasts forever". Is tat true? Maybe yes, maybe no...

Talking abt 2day, finally handed in our primer 2 drafts, sketches and mock-up model. Haha, so tml dun need to go SP to hand up. But den next week onwards shd be very busy cos going to do the actual installation, cadp and presentation slides... hope our budget can still remained at $0. Haha, den ES sure get A+.

Played bball at note again. 2day got a lot of ppl, 10 - bo, dz, jd, jh, kh, kp, wh, wp, zx and me. So rare tat so many ppl playing bball, but only played a few matches only, so sianz, everytime ask 8pm den 9pm den all will reach... haiz... anyway, my skills become lousy liao, shooting also duno how to shoot liao... now is 3.51am, must sleep liao, tml still need to go back sec sch...




Feelings: Sick
Thoughts: Hope my blocked nose can recover soon...

Love...

Getting more and more depressed, do I stand a chance? I dun know. Does she notice tat I like her? I doubt so... Haiz... Competition is tough, where do I stand? What is love? Love cannot be explained, it is a wonderful feeling, a moment of impulse. Me becoming more gong liao.

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Transport taken today: Dad's car, Bus 74
Feeling: Sick, blocked nose...
Thoughts: Her...

A love song

Love Me

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.

Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.

He said,"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,

Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.

Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.

But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead

Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.

I'll meet you when my chores are through;

I don't know how long I'll be.

But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.

And between now and then, till I see you again,

I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,

In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.

I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;

But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.

I'll meet you when my chores are through;

I don't know how long I'll be.

But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.

And between now and then, till I see you again,

I'll be loving you. Love, me.

Between now and then, till I see you again,

I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I still remember this song is taught to us when we were in pri 5 by Ms Ong. It's sung by Collin Raye. It's a very beautiful song, the lyric is very touching and meaningful. It's also the first love song that I heard and learned.

Transport taken today: Bus 74
Feelings: Sianz
Thoughts: More and more restless

Sianz...

Long time no blog le. Yesterday played bball again, got bo, dz, jd, jh, kp, wh, wp, ws, zx and me. Den aft the lights are off, jh, ws and wp went back first while the rest of us stayed at the playground near wh hse and talk talk talk. Talk till about 12am+ and ws sms to ask who wants to play pool, so kp, zx and me went home to bathe 1st den meet ws and jaren at hougang plaza ard 2am. Ws helped us to pay when we were playing at the one which only opens till 3am, aft tat we went to the other one which is 24hrs and played till 5.40am, this time the cost is divided among us. Den went back home, very de tired. 2day juz stayed at home playing game whole day, so sianz.




Transport taken today: Bus 112
Feelings: Sianz
Thoughts: Have to do mock-up model of primer 2...

Stella's concert

2day finally went to watch Stella's performance at the auditorium, received a goody bag and inside it was the genki tea she advertised. The whole place was filled with ppl, saw tat she actually quite tanned, but her song's very nice. There's interaction with the audience as well. Took 50+ pictures but all very small leh, sit too far away liao. So few ppl go and get her autograph, like only less den 100 ppl, was thinking of buying her album for only $16, but no extra $ so didn't buy.



Anyway, for the primer 2 thing, still not very much progress, hope can finish in time loh. I was beginning to think about wat kp said few days ago, renting a stall and sell things.




Transport taken today: Dad's car, Bus 74
Feelings: Tired
Thoughts: Tml got orchestra practice...

Fed up

Haiz... really fed up with the primer 2 thingy... duno wat to do, dun even noe wat the lecturers want... -_-'' really really sianz... maybe shouldn't have joined architecture... need to spend so much $ and think so much... Anyway, juz found out 2day tat there is a innovation organisation in singapore call 'IDEA', maybe I'll see wat's tat about when I'm free...

At least 2day got the tickets for Stella Ng's school concert. Queued for 45 mins den got it, very tired. But I got 1 extra tickets, duno give who... maybe tml go there see who wants den give... haha... gtg do my primer 2 le... sianz...




Transport taken today: Bus 74
Feelings: Fed up
Thoughts: Primer 2 how to do...