Sianz sianz sianz

Very de sianz ah. Recently feeling very moody, duno y. Also feeling depressed and boring, die, maybe got depression liao... haiz... den 2day supposed to go hiking with the alumni, but den woke up at 5.30am and dun feel like going so keep on sleeping -_-..zzZ Come to think of it, I've keep on release pigeon (fang ge zi) to the alumni... tat time they ask me to join in for the chingay performance, i agreed but aft tat, i didn't go for the practice so in the end i did not join in. Den got a bi-annual alumni meeting on 31 july i also didn't go. Last sat i was supposed to hand over to hidayah the money for joining the alumni but i overslept so didn't meet her. Den 2day i agreed to go hiking with them but i dun feel like going so didn't go also... haiz... maybe i shd not join the alumni?

2day saw the olympic for table tennis. Li Jia Wei lost her bronze medal to the korean woman, so sianz... den went to play bball at nite, my shooting got something wrong liao, i aim straight but keeps shooting towards the left... siao liao... 2day only got jd, wp, ws, wh, zx and me play, so few ppl very boring... Feel like playing badminton recently, very long didn't play le, but den weekend book the court very expensive, but weekdays our schedule all not the same so very hard to meet and play... so sianz... beginning to wonder maybe i've choosen the wrong course? Wanted to get into business but den COP is 15, difference by 2 pts only... so suay. Den appeal for BIT also failed... ap school >_< maybe next time go university i'll study business, but den go U need to study for a few yrs, tat means i'll be 25 yrs old when i completed my studies... so old liao...

Life is so short, now already going to 17 yrs old. Den aft tat is finish my studies, get a job, den get married and live the rest of my life... like so boring like tat... i dun want to live my life juz like tat, so boring, how i hope there can be an adventure in my life, one big adventure for all of S.A. but where to find adventure? Singapore so small, everywhere already been explored, den the old changi hospital also taken over by the military... so ap, the government won't even leave some place for us to explore... so had to go overseas to explore liao. But den need $$$... sianz... maybe can open a company? It's the fastest way to earn money... actually wat i hope most is to have an adventure along with a "hong hong lie lie de ai qing", maybe i too naive ba, i always hope to have a love story like the FF8 Squall and Rinoa... how i wish FF was in reality den can go on missions and kill monsters... haiz... talking about FF8, I love the song a lot. I'll continue tml cos this post very de long liao and now very late liao... (to be continue...)




Feelings: Hopeless
Thoughts: Hopeless